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Tripping over regrets
Falling on failures
Smacking into sorrows
So casually strewn about
Bag it all up
Toss in the bin
Drag it to the curb
Clear the clutter
Would that
Errant thoughts
And random ruminations
Were so easily disposed
29 Friday Jun 2012
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Tripping over regrets
Falling on failures
Smacking into sorrows
So casually strewn about
Bag it all up
Toss in the bin
Drag it to the curb
Clear the clutter
Would that
Errant thoughts
And random ruminations
Were so easily disposed
29 Friday Jun 2012
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Fear is a natural reaction to moving closer to the truth.
–Pema Chodron
28 Thursday Jun 2012
Posted Behind The Mask
inFor Sarah (Ukuleles!)
28 Thursday Jun 2012
Posted Poetry
inSmall still voice at center resists
Hides away inside my head
Cowers whimpers and twists
From hurtful truths to be said
Yet the hurtful things it can say
Will injure, sear, and burn
And lead my soul astray
Should I to the past return
But must this past really be unearthed?
Examined, confronted, and relived?
Before I may be free of hurt
Finding within myself love to give
First I will allow my heart to feel
Open my heart for love to enter
That it may move through me to heal
The soul and the voice at center
28 Thursday Jun 2012
Posted Behind The Mask
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Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.
27 Wednesday Jun 2012
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devil on my shoulder, head, monkey on my back, noise, poem, poetry
Monkey on my back
Screeching and clawing
Devil on my shoulder
Shouting in my ear
Noise blocking signal
Input overload
Nothing but
Disjoint
Fragments
Received
Cacophony in my head
Kills fragile thought
Central control fails
Fury rises, brief
Quelled reveals despair
But not quiet
Quiet is long dead
Stabbed by the devil
Beaten by that damn monkey
27 Wednesday Jun 2012
Posted Behind The Mask
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Love is the expression of the one who loves, not of the one who is loved. Those who think they can love only the people they prefer do not love at all. Love discovers truths about individuals that others cannot see
26 Tuesday Jun 2012
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This is not Haiku, but I was inspired by Sarah’s recent visit to the mountains.
Alive now in this aerie
On top of the world
Sight no longer weary
Healed by wonders unfurled
Thankful for this life
I breathe the clear air
Breathe out the strife
And release all care
Moving now as far as I dare
Knowing the edge I must mind
Danger and beauty there
So wonderfully entwined
In the distance is that forever I see?
Between the falling flakes of snow
Or just where earth and sky meet?
It seems I am not destined to know
But I shall not trouble myself
Some mysteries nature must keep
The question I leave to someone else
As I take an imaginary leap
Down the mountain through the trees
Skimming earth and sky
Swimming in nature and the breeze
Borne on my mind’s eye
Returning now to this place
My soul clean and clear
Vision evident on my face
Ever this my heart to hold dear
26 Tuesday Jun 2012
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Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worst kind of suffering.
25 Monday Jun 2012
Posted Poetry
inOutside the raging sun
Scorches all it touches
Yet in my soul
Only a burning cold
Electric cold core
Something there lurks
Sparking like a live wire
Warning of massive hurt
Forward echo of pain to be
Freezes me in my tracks
Will this be the end of me?
I wonder as my resolve cracks
The only way out is through
I must open this door
I know what I must do
Must touch the core
Confront this alien thing
Though it will hurt I know
Let the pain through me ring
And in so doing let it go
24 Sunday Jun 2012
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Tears are words that need to be written.
24 Sunday Jun 2012
Posted Poetry
inTime for a little bit of fun. Not everything has to be somber all the time. 🙂
Some famously ask
Do androids dream of electric sheep?
I think not
Seems far too simple to me
Bits on a wire
Flashes via fiber
Consuming digital fire
A connection cyber
Processes merge
Join as one
Data pulses and surges
As wild routines run
An electronic dream
Just a bit of android fun
Life behind the screen
After the jobs have all run
24 Sunday Jun 2012
Posted Poetry
inI always told myself
I was fine on my own
Just me and nobody else
Ignoring secrets unknown
Fiercely independent?
Or preemptively defensive?
Reject before rejection
Always taking the offensive
But lying to yourself
Does not make it true
Saying I’m great by myself
A lie I now see through
Lest my soul wither and rot
A life’s rejection I must atone
Seems after all I’m not
So fine on my own
22 Friday Jun 2012
Posted Behind The Mask
in“Breakdowns can create breakthroughs. Things fall apart so things can fall together.”- Unknown
Seems appropriate for these past few months.
I haven’t totally reached the state of things “falling together,” but am feeling more positive than in months.
21 Thursday Jun 2012
Posted Behind The Mask
inSent out a missive to the subject of one of my longest-held secrets, the one for whom so much of this poetry was written. All is now revealed. I feel freer now, having gotten it off my chest. Also a little nervous waiting for a reaction.
But recently arriving at the decision to let go of the past and learn to love myself allowed me to free myself from this secret. The sharing of the secret is just the last act of closure. A metaphorical clearing of the decks.
21 Thursday Jun 2012
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Small pieces of the past
Dredged up from the deep
Things that form my mask
Secrets I strain to keep
Things full of hurt
Said and done to me
Pain unasked
Form the chains I see
But a life in chains
Is no life at all
Leads only to pain
Trapped behind walls
If ever again life is to grow
And break these prison walls
Seeds of forgiveness I must sow
Allow myself to let go of it all
20 Wednesday Jun 2012
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inYears thinking I loved you
Blind to not loving myself
All the more the fool
For asking it of someone else
Looking to you
To complete my dreams
I realize now
I only lost myself
I must now seek within
That which was sought without
Travel where I’ve never been
Push past all doubt
Begin to learn to love me
Let go, forgive, loosen the load
Accept who I will be
Revealed on this new road
So now I must begin
Depart on this journey
Seeking without end
Destination: me
19 Tuesday Jun 2012
Posted Poetry
inDropping into the still deep
Adrift in the quiet of outer space
Seeking the solitude of silence
Something to soothe my soul
But silence without fails to quell
The cacophony within
The soul’s scream
Ringing through a crowded head
No rest from the noise
Wanting blessed silence
Needing a time to rest
Longing for a bit of healing
Give me peace
A little bit of quiet
Some time not to think
A blank respite
18 Monday Jun 2012
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So unfair the distribution
Of that one most important gift
That some may so casually create
What others so desperately seek
But so casually created
Before thought was given
Now to be destroyed
This life unbidden
My heart breaks for you
The you no one shall know
I wish you a chance anew
To return to live and grow
17 Sunday Jun 2012
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Strange and incomplete
This life of mine
Disassembled
All my parts
Arrayed before me
Pulled from the frame
Laid bare for inspection
Repair or replace?
Debug and fix?
Form a new schematic
Reassemble, reconfigure, reconnect
Send me out into the world
Shiny automaton reborn